I’m 38 years old. I have no potential partner in sight. There was one, but he keeps putting off going out and I think maybe he’s not really interested. Which probably makes it a bad thing that I asked him today if he’d father my baby. I clarified that I would raise it on my own, but he didn’t want to bring another child into the world.
My biological clock is ticking loudly. For many years I didn’t want to be a mother. I thought I’d be bad at it, I thought I’d lose what was left of my mental health. After a long talk with a friend who has bipolar disorder and 6 kids, I feel differently. I feel like having a child would bring a special kind of joy and meaning into my life. I feel like I’d be less prone to depression and would handle it better when it does happen.
I got very excited about the idea of a baby, sure that this man was going to be willing, and now I still have the desire but not the resource. I started researching sperm banks. I found a donor who is just about a perfect match for what I’m seeking. However, one round of artificial insemination (which you do at home now, fancy that) will cost me $800. I have money coming in eventually, but not enough to cover that and my other expenses. So, I’m asking, gently, if anyone is willing to contribute to A Baby for Sarah. The exact breakdown of charges is $25 for a more in-depth report on the donor (not critical, but it seems like something I should read if he’ll end up as the father of my child), $595 for one unit of sperm, and $80 for shipping in a special cryo container.