One Year of Treatment

On this day one year ago, I was Celebrating February 14th.  It’s been a long, hard year since then.  While I was released from that visit with a mere Contract for Safety, I was back at the ER a month later, being admitted to the inpatient unit because I was dangerously suicidal.  I had another three inpatient stays throughout the year, including one that followed an overdose of Benadryl.

I’ve signed at least half a dozen Contracts for Safety and laughed at the idea of many more.  I’m no longer asked to sign them.  I’ve had a total of 63 therapy sessions across 3 therapists.

I’ve gone every month or two to the psych APRN to have medications adjusted.  Each time that he has set the appointments 2 months apart, something has happened halfway between them.  The first time, I ended up in inpatient.  The second time, I had to call him with a problem, and still ended up in inpatient.  The third time, he gave me permission to call for a sooner appointment and I did.

Currently I take Wellbutrin, Latuda, and BuSpar, with a few leftover trazodone on hand in case I can’t sleep.  During the past year I’ve also taken Seroquel (made me suicidal) and Abilify (didn’t seem to help as much as the Latuda).

A month ago, I started attending DBT group therapy each week.  Next week I have an interview with Vocational Rehabilitation to see if they’ll pay to have the supported employment services help me with job hunting, as anxiety led to me quitting my full-time job in December.

As I said, a long, hard year, but things are starting to look up.  Not only do I not want to kill myself, but I’m no longer passively suicidal and am even starting to find some enjoyment in activities again.  I still feel pretty hopeless about my life as a whole, but at least I have some ability to take steps toward a better future.

One such step, which I’ve been planning for some time, is the writing of a book about this first year of treatment.  I have some ideas of information I’d want to include, but am opening this question up to readers: what would you be interested in reading more about if I were to write such a book?

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One thought on “One Year of Treatment

  1. I would read your book just to hear your story. You have a strong, well written voice and I can relate to much of what you’ve gone through. Good luck, I hope your meds continue to help you! You are unique & we all need you here on Earth. ❤️❤️❤️

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